there's something more out there

I’m Waiting

Because I know that God is still molding my future husband. Because I know that He is still molding me. And one day, when I meet the guy that I’m suppose to marry, I know that it’ll be the right time because God had planned it, and His plans are wonderful. I want to be able to praise God’s name together with my husband, and all I want to do is to glorify God’s name with our relationship. I want to be able to lift up my hands towards my Daddy up in the Heavens and sing new songs of praise comfortably with the person I love on earth. I am waiting because I know whatever is ahead of me will be amazing, and I am waiting because I don’t want things to happen because of what I want - but I am waiting because I want things to happen His way. And whoever God has made for me, will be perfect for me. He may not be perfect in any other girl’s eyes, but he will be in mine because God had assigned us to be together. But until that day, I will wait patiently. I will wait in joy and peace. I do not want to wait in jealousy and impatience and fear. I want to wait whilst glorifying God’s name.

The Other Half

Most girls believe that other halves exist. a.k.a. True loves. Their prince charming that will save them and woo them and whatnot.

As a believer of Christ, I don’t believe that we were all made as a ‘half’ by God so that we would feel ‘complete’ when we marry another human being.

I’m not saying that marriage is wrong - or anything like that. I think marrying someone you truly love is a beautiful thing. It requires commitment, love, faith, and all that sweet stuff.

I’m just saying that not all people were created by God to marry someone.

Besides, God didn’t make us as a ‘half’ so that we may feel ‘complete’ by marrying someone from this world. He made us ‘half’ so that we may feel complete when we marry Him.

Alot of girls these days go oogly eyed, and think that at fourteen they have found their true love.

A couple of months later, their hearts are broken and think that it’s the end of the world.

As females, we were created with sensitive hearts. And for that reason, we must be able to protect it.

Just because the boy next door is cute, and you feel like falling in love doesn’t mean that you are falling in love.

It is probably just an infatuation. A crush. Some kind of puppy love.

Girls these days need to be more patient and so that the right guy (if God allows) will come one day, and will actually whisk you away. And that right guy will be the right guy because God sent him to you.

If you are single, and wondering why no one has asked you out. Or why no one is good enough to like. Or why you’re single, etc etc - Feel blessed for you are single. You are not burden with trying to please anyone at the moment - Except for pleasing God. So use this time of ‘single-ness’ wisely and spend more time in creating an intimate relationship with God, instead of worrying that you mightn’t get a husband one day - or any other thoughts that the bad spirits have sent you.

If you are in a relationship with someone right now, think how intimate you are with that person. Are you just in it for the superficial stuff? Or are you in it for the real deal? The real deal, meaning that you both are having the same vision in life. To serve God together, and be powerful together, and that God’s work comes first above all else.

Provide a time where you can reflect all of these, and ask God what’s the perfect plan for you.

As you know that all of our journeys are differently unique.

Leave it up to God

I keep forgetting that I can’t control everything that comes to my path. I need to learn that there is another way of dealing with certain situations. That is, leaving it up to God. So that I may focus on something greater that is much more important in comparison to investing my energy and time in something I can’t do to make it happen. Because all is in God’s time. And everything through God is possible.

I just need to have faith in Him, and know that He will provide the best for me.

Their journey is different to mine

I need to realise that other people’s journey is differently planned by God in comparison to my own. I need to stop being jealous over the little things that they get i.e. attention by certain people, due to certain things - because their purpose of living is different to mine.

I need to stop putting myself down because I am unlike others. I need to stop trying to be like others, and failing.

I need to go away so I can be alone with God and so that I may ask Him what my real purpose is.

Because I am not going to last forever in this world. I want to make the most of my time here, I want to make a change. But I won’t make a change if I don’t change these ways of mine.

I need to depend on God more, I need to do things His way. Not my way.

It is due to Him that I am here, thus I will try to try harder in living for Him and not living for the people around me.

They may see how weird I am, they may dislike the way I am - But at least I will be truly living for a purpose.

I’m not a perfect person.

whatever it is that i do, what ever it is that i say. every time, every single time - my Father would always take me back like i haven’t done anything wrong. He sees me for the real me, whatever that may be. He knows me better than i know myself. His grace, surrounds me like a shield of light that will never wear out. His love is never ending, and His tenderness and care for me - is something i can count on. 

i’m not a perfect person. i do things that i shouldn’t, i say things that i shouldn’t, i even walk away from Him because i am ashamed of what i have done. ashamed of my sins, ashamed of my unworthyness. 

and every time i tell Him that, every time i tell Him that i don’t know what to do. every time i tell Him that i’m lost. every time that i tell Him that i am ashamed for what i’m doing and not doing, He tells me to come back into His arms. He tells me to come back and leave everything behind and come back to Him. because that’s the most important thing of all.

He doesn’t care if i’m weak. if i did bad things. He doesn’t care about what’s on the outside, what we look like - what we have done in the past. the thing He cares about is our hearts. if our hearts are at the right place, if our hearts are focused on Him - He won’t look at our doings that we have done in the past. 

He is accepting us for who we are. the imperfects. we don’t need to be perfect to come back into His hands. we don’t need to be some goody two shoes to come back into His love. it is because of our imperfection that we should go back into His glory, because we are filthy beings. because of His love we are then cleansed, and are given new lives.

His love is everlasting, and His love is for you and me. 

i don’t think i can ever get my head around that.